It has taken awhile for me to get to thisbecause it has been really hard for me~
I decided....
I owe it to my friend......
In the afternoon of February 2nd I noticed that my dear little White Kitty was having a very hard time breathing. Most importantly he wasn't eating....not even Fancy Feast...not a good sign. I also noticed a few other things and I knew I had to get him to the vet in the morning.
In the afternoon of February 2nd I noticed that my dear little White Kitty was having a very hard time breathing. Most importantly he wasn't eating....not even Fancy Feast...not a good sign. I also noticed a few other things and I knew I had to get him to the vet in the morning.
He was laying down next to my chair in my computer room. I didn't sleep at all that night constantly going in and checking on him, laying down by him and telling him it would all be alright.
It's wasn't alright.
I got him to the vet 45 minutes before they opened to be sure I could get in first. After "the tests" I was told that he had fluid around his lungs and that it was only going to get worse for him. The vet advised the "humanitarian thing" to do for a cat his age, 17 and I was completely unprepared to make such a hard decision. I have never had to decide to put one of my animals to sleep before and I can honestly say that it was one of the MOST difficult things I have ever done. I knew the vet was right. But I wasn't ready. How could I let go of one of the BEST things I have ever had in my life. I was there for Kitty when he needed me after someone had shot him in the tummy with an arrow. I can still remember what the vet said to me that day..."He must really trust you...looks like you got yourself a cat!
He was right.
In turn that cat was there for me all the time. He had been with me thru think and thin and everywhere in between. It seemed his sole purpose in life was to just be there for me, comfort me and just love me.
I made the decision to relieve his suffering. I still struggle with it but I have been told I did the right thing.
I suppose I am just being selfish....I miss my friend.
Russ had found this heart shape stone on a job site a few years ago and I had never found a place for it to go...
until now.
It finally found a place~ next to my friend ~among my flowers.
19 comments:
Beth~ ((((BIG HUGS)))) to you!
Hi Beth, Im sorry about Kitty. It is hard to lose a friend. When they have been with you for so long. That is a great heart shaped rock to give Kitty. Julian
Beth- I'm SO sorry for your loss...our pets bring so much love into our lives. Having been through this myself, I know how very heartbreaking this is...my thoughts are with you.
Beth, I'm so sorry. It is hard, one of the hardest decisions I ever had to make for my faithful dog, Bridgette many yrs ago. I'm thinking of you~
I am so sorry. The stone is lovely and what a great remembrance for your beloved Kitty.
Deb
You were such a great friend to Kitty. You found eachother, and comforted eachother. You did the right thing, although it was extremely hard.
He is in peace now...and I am sure he appreciates such a wonderful and heartfelt gesture of finding the heart stone a place...just for him!
My thoughts are with you!
Beth,
Your words are so touching. Brought tears to my eyes and a lump in my throat. I can tell you really loved Kitty. There will be another one for you to love, and although maybe not quite as special, another cat can help you heal. It sounds as though you know how to be a wonderful cat mom! I hope you'll try it.
I am so sorry for your loss. Take your time!
So sorry to hear this. My thoughts are with you.... Our pets are our BFFs.
I am sorry to hear of the loss of your friend...((((HUGS)))))to you.
I am so sorry for your loss ! Jen
Sorry to hear about Kitty. It is so very far to lose our furry friends. What a special heart for your special kitty.
My thoughts are with you as your go through this difficult time.
hugs,
Cindy
I'm so sorry about your sweet friend. You brought tears to my eyes..I love my cherised Sammy cat..and can't imagine something happening to him.
Your heart stone is perfect for the sweet heart you both shared. Lisa
I cried while reading your post. Every time I take my cat to the vet, they tell me, "Well you know he is getting old..." I hope you find comfort in this time of sadness.
I just wanted to THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH for your kind words. Your hearts are all so big and filled with compassion.
I truly appreciate you all so much!
Beth
Well now you made me cry.... why did you not tell me this had happened???? I am so sad for you, I know how we love our little four legged feeted ones. Huggies, Janna
Oh Beth ..
been there.. done that..
not easy AT ALL..
so I type with tear blurred eyes..
feeling the pain..
both yours and mine..
knowing ..
we did it for THEIR good..
but hurting still at our loss..
and missing the warm purrs of our friends..
warm hugs,,
Loui♥
I'm so sorry. I know how much you're hurting.
Take care, Lynea
Hi Beth
I'm sorry about your cat. I am a cat lover too and have had to make that decision to puat our cats down several times and it is never easy. What a cute stone to remember kitty by.
Hope you survivied the winter. Is it over yet?
Hugs, Rhondi
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